So, I went out last weekend with my Mom and sister for an early birthday celebration and shopping spree. My birthday isn’t until July 1, but we wanted to hit up the mall before the summer stuff got too picked over. We stayed overnight, slept in, and ate lots of glorious calorie-ridden food. It was wonderful, but…I don’t think I am going to weigh myself until next week when the bloat goes away more!
While shopping, I started to notice the changes in my body, so I thought I’d give a bit of an update about that. I do not yet feel comfortable stating my weight, but I am ok with opening up about sizes.
When I started out in January, I was attempting (sometimes unsuccessfully) to cram myself into size 18s. I was in complete denial about the fact that I had reached a point where I was a size 20, and I think I only allowed myself to buy one or two items of clothing in that size. I remember buying a pair of size 18 jeans that were so tight I couldn’t really even wear them – but I still bought them, telling myself that denim stretches (it didn’t – not enough at least!) I was busting out of my size XL shirts, and depending on the style, sometimes needed to shop for those at plus size stores. That was a hard pill to swallow. I accepted that, being bottom heavy, plus-sized pants were sometimes the way to go, but when I needed dresses and tops in plus sizes, I realized just how out of control my eating and lack of exercise had become.
Please do not think that I am putting down anyone who wears plus-sized clothing. There are many beautiful, gorgeous plus-sized people out there, and they shouldn’t feel shame. You CAN be plus-sized and healthy and confident. But I was NOT healthy. I was that size strictly because of really terrible habits, and was basically abusing my body. It was not good for me.
Now, with 20+ pounds gone, I have noticed the progress. I am now buying size 16-18 bottoms, and size large-xlarge shirts (depending on the store of course). It was a great feeling when I would put something on in the size I thought I’d need, only to realize I needed a size smaller. That hasn’t happened in a very long time!
I even spent a pretty penny getting a fabulous, high-waisted two-piece bathing suit from Torrid. I felt like a million bucks in it, so it was worth the cost!
I also bought some cheesey sunglasses from there as well. They are silly but awesome at the same time. (Excuse the crummy quality of the photo...it's time for a new phone!)
Oh, and the morning before I left, I managed to run a mile in 11 minutes and 20 seconds. This may seem slow to some of you, but I started this season at about a 13 minutes mile!!! I have a long way to go before I am back where I was, but I will get there! I just need to find the right Couch to 5k program to follow. I think that’s how I’ll start.