So, on Tuesday (as I posted) I decided to re-join my old gym. I had cancelled my membership a little over two years ago for two reasons: one, I was having trouble finding the time to go, with a busy toddler at my side and a husband working shifts; and two, I was attempting to save money. Blah blah blah. It was a terrible decision, but also the right one at the time.
I am not currently the heaviest I have ever been, but I am starting to creep back up there. I am still not ready to share my weight, because I am so embarrassed about it. My binge eating has become a monster unto itself. So I thought about it, and remembered just how much healthier I tend to eat, and how less often I binge, when I am exercising regularly. And our schedules allow me to have the time to do. So I took the plunge.
I am so glad that I did! I have only gone to the gym once (today), but I already feel more confident! This is why I decided to join now - during the crazy holiday season - instead of waiting until the new year. I needed that confidence boost.
Wish me luck!