These are My Confessions

Confession: I officially weigh more than I ever have before, excluding pregnancy. As you can imagine, this is doing a number on my self esteem.

Why do I eat so much?

- I eat when I'm bored
- I eat when I feel sad and depressed
- I eat when I feel like celebrating
- I binge eat but don't know why
- When I have a bad meal at the start of the day, I say "screw it" and eat more and more
- I eat when I'm craving something
- I eat when other people are eating around me

I have come to the realization that I'm probably addicted to food, and could really use some suggestions of resources, if anyone has any.

In the meantime...I'll just keep floundering...and trying to improve...

Give Me A Challenge

I feel the need for a new challenge.

Preferably a work-out challenge.

Any ideas?

Still Here

Just wanted to let you know that I'm still here, and still working at it! My weight loss has stalled (my own fault) but I am doing really well with my workouts - being consistent and hitting it hard! I finally got a nice run in outside - it was only around 1 or 2 degrees out, but the roads were clear(ish) so I gave it a shot. I haven't run outside in months, and I think I did really well. I guess forcing myself to use the DREADMILL during the winter months was worth the torture!

Hopefully I will soon be once again seeing movement on the scale!

Disney Planning!

Yesterday was an exciting day for our family - we booked our next family vacation to Walt Disney World in Florida! I am so excited...I designated yesterday as "Disney Day".

We will be going in August. Yes, I know it will be hot, and yes, I know it will be busy. I'm over it. My sister is a teacher, so we have to go when it's busy. The last two times we went, both my sister and I were on maternity leave, so we were able to go at a more desirable time. Now? Not so much.

This is definitely motivation for me to stay on track with my eating on exercise. I'm off to a good start this month. Anytime I feel like binging on junk, I remind myself that Disney is coming. I want to feel good and have energy during the trip, and I want to look good in the photos. Five months gives me plenty of time to make good progress.

Here are some photos from our last trip, just for fun:

It Has to be Said...

I know we are all sick of talking about the white/gold/blue/black dress, but...I have to do it...



There. I'm done!

Ramblings

So I fell off the wagon again, but don't you worry...I am back on it today, and working once again at whittling my waist!

Even though I've gained some weight back, I couldn't be happier about some of the progress that I've made at the gym. My running is getting faster, despite having to use the treadmill which we all KNOW that I hate; I can last longer on the stairs; and I'm about ready to up some of my weights for strength training! I am feeling strong!

Well not today - today I have a tummy ache. I think I've caught a small bug that my children so lovingly have passed around, and I'm just hoping that I start to feel better soon. I am really hoping to start March off with a bang...and I want no more sickness to get me down!

Before and After- First 10 Pounds

I realize that I should have posted this at the end of January, but...better late than never, right?

These photos show about a ten pound difference, from my starting weight as of January 1st (207) to my weight as of January 31st (197.2) At first I was unhappy that I couldn't see much of a difference, but then several people pointed out that my face and tummy look smaller, so I figured I should just listen to them and be happy with the results.



Here is an even better comparison picture, though. On the left is a photo taken 3 years ago when I weighed 198, and on the right is the same 197.2 photo as shown above. Now I can DEFINITELY tell a difference in this photo, even though my weight is basically the same!



This just serves as a reminder that weight isn't the only indicator of success. Obviously my weight lifting and cardio routine has helped to keep my body in better shape than it was three years ago. Knowing that is DEFINITELY helping to keep me motivated.

I'm starting to feel better, so I'm sure I'll be kicking butt at the gym again in no time.