It's my Party, I'll Eat Junk if I Want To

Yeah...I'm not even going to PRETEND that today was a good eating day...and I doubt tomorrow will be either...and you know, it's funny, but I don't feel the least bit guilty about it!

Anyway...I don't have time to write a long post. I just wanted to pop in to say HAPPY EASTER!!! I had a great weekend, and more fun planned for tomorrow, so I shall be sharing the weekend recap (as well as some other exciting stuff) with you later this week!!! And then I'll be back on track to hit my ultimate goal of 148 - hopefully in the next two weeks! Hold me to it!

Fat-Free Good Friday

First of all, I hope that you all had a safe, happy, and healthy start to your long weekend. I know that I ate way too much chocolate did!

Second of all, I lost 0.6 of a pound this week. So I didn't hit my ultimate goal (1 more pound to go) but I also didn't gain, which is what I was afraid of! Thankful for that!

Onto more important things...

Recently, blogger SkinnyMeg had a post titled "More Than Being Skinny". If you haven’t read it yet, you really should. It gave great insight into the many benefits that exercise and healthful eating can bring to your life – besides the weight loss, of course! I don’t think you can possibly read about her journey without feeling proud of the positive changes she’s made, and how far she's come.

Naturally, it got me thinking about my own struggles. Many of you know that this isn’t my first rodeo – I successfully lost weight once before, and even kept it off for awhile…until marriage, school, and the stresses of daily life caused me to lose focus. After that I spent entirely too much time eating, being lazy, and feeling miserable about my appearance. Throw in my depression and anxiety disorders (sometimes well-treated, sometimes not) and you had a pretty unhappy Brenna.

I hit a breaking point last summer, a few months after having my second child. I was grumpy all the time, mad at myself, and feeling like a failure in my life. There were many reasons for this – and most of them could NOT be fixed by eating well and exercising. But after being dragged against my will to the doctor's (for my own good, I will admit) and put on proper medication to stabilize my moods, I realized that out of all of the stresses that were causing me pain, my eating and activity habits were at least things that I had control over. (And let’s face it – when you can’t stop screaming and crying, and your doctor orders you to get “one hour each day just to yourself”, it’s pretty easy to find family members willing to offer support).

I’d be lying if I said that I cared about anything other than weight loss…at first. I’d tell myself that I wanted to set a better example for my children – and I DID – but thinning out was definitely the main goal. I wanted to look at photos of myself and not be saddened and frustrated at what stared back. But very, VERY quickly, it became about so much more.

I suddenly had more energy. I was sleeping better. I felt more bonded to my family. My anger dissipated. I became a better wife and mom. Some of this was due to the medication, and I am thankful for that. But a lot was ALSO due to my new lifestyle - and knowing that I made those changes myself is something I can be proud of!

So it's no longer about being skinny for me, either. It's about knowing that I don't back down when a challenge presents itself. It's about the feeling I get when I shave a few more minutes off of my best run time. It's about knowing how far I've come, and how hard I had to try. It's about being pro-active with my health. It's about letting the little things in life bring me happiness again.

And you know what? I like that.


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Link-me-up, Scotty!

Another link-up! And this time, it isn't over by the time I post it! Yay!!!

1. If calories didn't count, I would eat...a LOT more dill pickle chips, McDonald's, and Tim Horton's donuts. I'd have the cloggiest arteries you've ever seen.

2. On my Prom night...we got pulled over because the person driving our car (a friend of mine) has the same name as a wanted felon or something. AWKWARD! Oh and I went with an ex-boyfriend, which was actually NOT awkward.

3. When I go to the store, I always buy...chocolate. Why do I do that to myself, you ask? Because apparently I like to constantly fight temptation in my own home. Because that makes sense.

4. Family functions typically...are LOUD...with two toddlers and two babies (mine and my sister's) you just can't bother even TRYING to keep chaos to a minimum. And there is usually a lot of food, and none of it is low calorie. We're awesome like that.

5. I think my blog readers...are the main reason I've been successful in my weight loss. My blog isn't special, I'm not very exciting, but people read and follow me anyway, and leave nice comments...and it DEFINITELY helps me to keep myself accountable. Thank you SO MUCH for cheering me on!

6. I'd much rather be...a stay-at-home mom. But we just can't afford it. So, maybe what I really want to be is a lottery winner...hmmm...that sounds good...

7. I have an obsession with... reading blogs. Especially those relating to fitness and weight loss. It's a bit ironic that I spend more time on my butt READING about exercise than I do actually exercising, but...let's just forget about that, shall we?

8. My work friends...have much more interesting lives than I do!

9. When I created my Facebook account...I had no idea what it was and only did it because my friends told me to. Yup, peer pressure won out. Now I'm obsessed!

10. My least favorite word is...something that I won't type here. But it starts with a "c" and rhymes with "bunt". Hate it.

11. I really don't remember...where I ever put anything. Seriously, I'll have something in my hand and five minutes later, it will be gone...and I won't even remember putting it down!!! And I kid you not, I did it with my baby once. Seriously. (It was at home, no worries, and she was in her pack and play)

12. Justin Bieber... is a fellow Canadian, has lots of talent, but I still don't REALLY get the obsession with him. And he needs to stop tweeting. Like yesterday.

That's all for today!!! Now go join this link-up...NOW!

Ulgh....

So, yesterday was bad...

Me + kid's birthday party + everyone telling me to "eat more" + dessert = BAD COMBINATION!

I may have ruined my chances of hitting my goal on Friday. Actually I'm pretty sure I did. And I felt like garbage after, because the evening turned into a full-blown binge. This is how I felt after:



Awful, right? When will I learn...?

On the way TO the party, I saw a bunch of people running a race. I'm not sure what kind of race it was, but I saw a "17k" marker, so I'm thinking it may have been a half marathon. I think those are around 21 kilometres? Anyway, it definitely made me itching to get back outside running. So I put my best foot forward today (pun intended) and knocked out 5k in 31 minutes. That's pretty close to my fastest time ever, so I'm thrilled with that!

I know that this wasn't a very exciting post. I'm hoping to have some new and cool stuff coming up on this blog soon, though. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Fat-Free Friday

I have an announcement to make...

...(no, I am not pregnant. Go away.)

...I AM IN THE 140s!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*happy dance* *cartwheels* *giant smiley face*

I weighed in at 149.6 this morning. You have absolutey NO idea how excited I am. Almost as excited as I will be when I hit my ultimate goal of 148 pounds (hopefully next week...I am so ready for maintenance). A year ago, I would NEVER have thought this possible!!! But several months of Weight Watchers, exercise, and blogging (to keep myself accountable) have much a huge difference in my life! Of course I wish I had started sooner, but all in all, I'm not complaining!


I have joined a challenge for the next week that focuses on cleaning up my eating. We are all allowed to chose our own goals. No cleanses or detoxes for me...just cutting out a lot of the junk. So here is what I am going to do in order to reach my goal by next week (besides get rid of this TOM bloating. Heh.):

- Push myself harder with my exercise
- Not overindulge at the party I am going to on Sunday
- eat more healthy fats (from nuts, fish, legumes, etc)
- eat more veggies and drink more water
- eat less sugar and salt
- avoid processed food as much as possible
- avoid artificial sweeteners
- avoid (for the most part) chocolate and peanut butter, since they seem to be my downfall lately
- eat only whole grains, not the white stuff
- think positive and not beat myself up if I do have a slip - this one is very important!

Oh yes, I am also finally going to try quinoa this week. Any recipe suggestions?

That's really all I have to say for now. I'm just in such a giddy mood :)

What I am loving...

- spaghetti squash
- that spring is coming
- being able to pull off skinny jeans (pictures to come later)
- the fact that I actually crave lunches like this:


instead of lunches like this:


- asparagus (who knew?)
- onions - I put those devils on everything now!
- running outside!
- being so close to my ultimate goal
- chocolate fudge ice cream bars (only 90 calories for the ones I have, score!)
- All-bran cereal...yes, seriously...
- my kids' ages
- heck, just being a mom
- my new dry shampoo
- lifting weights
- my faithful readers :)

Happy Tuesday!

St. Patrick's Day

Today may not have been the most exciting St. Patrick's Day of all time in the eyes of some, but it was still a good day in my eyes.

I started by getting up and going for a run. It was colder than I thought, but I pushed through anyway. I didn't set any personal records or anything, but I did last an hour, and tackeled some of the hills around my house. Big win for me!

Next, I took my daughter swimming with my sister and niece. My sister had to yell at some pre-teens who were being idiots and nearly knocked our daughters in the head with their volleyball. Lame. Afterwards I tried to take a picture of my daughter but this is the best I got (her hair and swimming don't mix!)



Then I went home and made something that I had been looking forward to all week:



A homemade mint chocolate chip milkshake. It was worth every fattening sip.

I wore this, because I'm an idiot:



Then my daughter wanted to take a picture of her brother, and it ended up looking like this:



Could be worse? She's only 3.

I ended the day by going to a movie with my husband (Oz: The Great and Powerful. It was okay). No drinking, not partying, but lots of family time!

Hope that you all had a safe and fun St. Paddy's Day!